🍀 My Lucky Day Post🍀
There has been an individual (thou shall not be named but can be assumed at will) that has shamed me for this recently. People that obviously don’t know me at all and take their own insecurities and turn them into hateful words. I forgive you. You don’t know the whole story and that I almost lost my life. (If you did know, shame on you) It’s not just about being an irresponsible 23-year-old single mom who made a mistake. It’s about bringing awareness to the feeling of wishing your life was different and knowing the consequences of driving impaired. So please read and reconsider your judgment of my life.
🍀 Top of the Morning to You & Happy St. Patrick’s Day 🍀
***here it is 22 Years Later and I still am gonna post about the day that I almost left this earth.
* It was 22 years ago today I was a single mom with a 2 year old little girl, just trying to make it through life. I was working a lot, not eating right and trying to be an adult most days, trying to be the best Mom and depressed about it all.
So I went out on this day 22 years ago on my non custodial weekend, to blow off stress, didn’t eat all day, was exhausted from my workday. I had many stresses and was feeling overwhelmed. The events of the night were fairly normal, other than it being St. Patrick’s Day! That night I was staying with my girlfriend who lived a few blocks down the road.
The previous weekend I had a warning about all this, I had gotten pulled over for a rolling stop sign and had a sobriety test. I passed the test and was blessed to get off with a warning. Even after that I still decided I could go out for a few and be fine. Well a few special drinks later and I was not OK. I was asked by several people to not drive and some offered me rides. In my head I was OK to drive a few blocks, so I proceeded to drive towards my friend’s house. I decided I should stop and get something to eat at Wawa. I pulled in, and I woke up to my car running. It was only a few minutes but I passed out.
I got scared and was like I need to get to my friend’s house asap. I was driving to my friend’s house yet again. I came to a stop sign and flashed back to my previous incident of the rolling stop sign. After completely stopping I continued up the hill and the next thing I remember was the smell of a sawdust like smell which was the airbag powder, a few noises and cracking.
I had wrecked my car straight into a telephone pole, and broke it clear off. I was across traffic on the other side of the road, woke up and realized what had happened. I could barely get out of my car, the door hit the embankment and the telephone pole laid directly above my door. Then I do the limbo under the transformer at the end of the pole with hot wires hanging from it, to get to the other side to a person on the phone. He was talking to the police, telling them ‘yes she’s alive and walking this way’. When he asked if I was OK, the only thing I could say was.. ‘I’m so fucked’
The ambulance came with the police. They wanted to check me out, I refused care, feeling at an all time low. I felt Death may have been better in that moment. I knew I had made poor decisions. I was handcuffed and put in the back of the police car.
Then the officer had a little talk with me. He asked me about the carseat in my car. I told him it was my daughter’s. He asked how she would feel waking up and no longer having a mother? My heart broke even more than it already was, which I didn’t feel was even possible. He then asked if I wanted any of the belongings out of my vehicle. He gathered my few belongings and told me he just got word that I put the Walmart out of power briefly after taking out this transformer. He proceeded to drive me to the station while he told me that I’m too young and too important in this world to not think before I drive after drinking. I sat with that while he did paperwork, I got finger printed and I got blood taken.
The consequences were many. My life was almost the final consequence.
*** I got served with a DUI, four months of no license, 100 hours of community service and over $2k in fines. And that was a first offense with the ARD program. Not to mention the shame of it all.
*** what I gained that day was priceless, I gained the respect of life. I looked back on this day for 10 years and did Not drive on St Patrick’s Day. I would sit and I would reflect on the people that would have never met me, what my kid’s life would have been without me, and just how I would have affected everyone that knew and loved me.
*** so I want to thank everyone that reads this every year and has kind words to share. I am more than blessed to have everyone I know in my life now, to think of the people that would have never known me if I would have not made it that night, saddens me.
***so, if you go out tonight or any night to just blow off some stress, or are too upset to drive, take one moment and think about everybody that you would leave behind and how sad they would be if you were not in this world tomorrow because it does happen every single day. And I say this every year…
***If this keeps one person from drinking and driving tonight this post was worth it.
🍀March. 17th. 2001. My. Lucky. Day. 🍀
P.S. I am the happiest I’ve ever been and I thank my family and the love of my life, my husband, Justin for that!😉 💋
I LOVE MY PEOPLE! 😭🥰😭🥰
I’m glad I’m here today, and have All my people that I have. My energy is good and these are good people! ❤️ Thank you All for loving me!
